HumanlyNameless
male, 30 |
Musician
Derby / UK
member since 29.09.2006
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G'day! Quite why I used an Australian expression when I'm clearly English is beyond me, but never mind!
About a year ago, I began to embark upon a journey where I've been able to identify quite a few things about myself that I didn't like, and could definitely improve on. Such is the case that many people are often conditioned during their upbringing to be sensitive to the negative things that life throws at us, in order to fear said negative things to the point of suppression, and often what's suppressed is a person's personality.
Being able to learn how to catch myself 'in the act' of beating one's self up has been a fairly hard task, but once I realised what the effects were, I was able to make a change, and gain a little confidence by throwing away unnecessary thoughts.
What I have learnt more recently is how important social interaction. In the past I have been told that I'm a good public speaker and teacher, but often the case for me is being able to start a conversation with someone I don't know at all that's been difficult. This is something again that I am still working on, and I must admit that I've been able to approach new people a lot more easily over the last few months.
Real romance and relationships are still something I have yet to experience. Friendships are child's play in comparison, but it's great to know that I'm able to fall back to friends (not the TV show!) when something doesn't go quite right. I'm very honoured to have the friends I have, and some of them have been very instrumental in terms of pointing me in the right directions for this 'journey'.
Another part of my journey is through music, which is definitely part of who I am, and my main passion when it comes to 'success' in today's world. For me, it could never be a hobby, and is something that I very rarely compromise on, if at all. I try to create a balance - learn composition by performing, learn performance by composing, but listening all the time.
Naturally because of this, I've noticed that I am a person who imitates others...either through impersonation of an individual, or in musical terms by taking in ideas from someone else, and inspiring my own creations from that. Again, this is a facet I need to work on, as I don't yet feel that I have created something that is purely of my own doing. Maybe that isn't possible any more, but I guess there's no reason to kill an idea that's as likely to happen as it isn't!
I've found a great deal of parallels between music and martial arts. Studying as a kickboxer, I've been able to see, like in music, how we're taught the techniques continuously to improve on them, and then be subjected to a situation where we have to improvise what we've learnt with others. The added bonus to this is that I've been able to improve on being able to understand people's body language when it's displayed at a subtle level, and gain a better understanding of what we are all capable of.
I'm really glad to be able to write this now, and be able to think back to the things that I started learning days, weeks, months or years ago. I'm humbled by being able to even see this progress, and it is equally encouraging and inspiring that I may be able to take my own experiences, and share them with the people I care about. |
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